Carrying Dreams: March 2015

Sunday, March 15, 2015

Hope

In the midst of a very emotional week, I find myself feeling very grateful for each and every moment of this journey. The joyous times, the difficult times and everything in between. Nothing could have prepared me for the phone call I received from ORM this past Monday. Just a few days before, we were celebrating a positive hCG test result and never expected to hear that the numbers weren't doubling the way they should have. There are no words to express the wave of emotions that I was feeling. My heart hurt so bad for Udi and Matan...I hated the thought of them receiving anything but absolutely amazing news. I always strive to see the good in every situation and remind myself that everything happens for a reason, even though I may not see it in the moment. This was hard for me. I knew that no amount of tears, worry or research I did would change the outcome. I found hope in the incredible love and support that Udi and Matan have shown me. They assured me that everything will work out just the way it is supposed to and that everything will be okay, because we have each other.

The love that my husband has shown me this past week has been nothing short of amazing. His desire to learn and understand as much as possibly can has blown me away. I couldn't ask for a more incredible person to be my side through all of this.

My Surro Sister, Ashley brightened my week with a basket of sunshine. Thank you so much Ashley! You are always there to put a smile in my face and share in this crazy hormonal amazing journey with me!

As of Wednesday, my hCG levels are doubling appropriately and Dr. Bankowski is having me come in on Monday for an early ultrasound. FaceTiming with the guys yesterday gave me so much peace and calmed my anxious heart. I know that no matter what we find out tomorrow, our journey will be absolutely perfect because we have each other. This is another piece of the puzzle...our perfectly imperfect puzzle!

The guys got me something in Jerusalem yesterday...I don't think there is any better way to finish this post than with this:

Thank you from the bottom of our hearts for all your love and support!

We have the most amazing friends and family in the world!

What to expect:

☑ Inquire about a second surrogacy journey
☑ Submit updated questionnaire and photos
☑ Request medical records from surrogacy pregnancy
☑ Medical Records approved by ORM
☑ Wait to be matched with Intended Parents
☑ Skype meeting with Intended Parents
☑ Mutual decision to move forward
☑ Intended Parents travel to Portland to meet us
☑ Review Contract with our Attorney
☑ Sign Contract once mutual agreement is met between us and the Intended Parents
☑ Travel to Israel for Elly and Daniel's 1st Birthday!!
☑ Begin medication cycles
☑ Undergo embryo transfer
☑ hCG Blood test POSITIVE
☑ "Head count" ultrasound - TWINS!!
☐ Discontinue hormone therapies
☐ First OB visit
☐ Intended Dads arrive for Anatomy Scan
☐ Present the intended dads with their new baby or babies!!

A LOVE LETTER TO ANOTHER MOTHERS CHILD

You are the child of my bodyBut you are the child of your mother's heart.You are the flesh of my fleshBut you are the joy of your mother's life.You are the fulfillment of your mother's dreamsthe answer to her prayers and the sparkle in her eyes.From conception to birth you were part of my life and I love you dearly.But from birth to life's end you will be a part of your mother's lifeand she will not only love you - she will teach you what love is.You are your own person but to become your own person will take many years of nurturing,Nurturing which can only be accomplished through proper training and education throughout your childhood combined with the love, patience and understanding that only a mother can provide.Yes, my child, you are your ownbut you are equally your mother's ownand she will provide the nurturing you will needas only a mother can provide to her very own.